[FreddyLea]

i cause pain to myself on a weekly basis ... and i enjoy every minute of it.

i know, when i get on my mountain bike that odds are i am going to run into something, fall while going down a hill or miss a jump and land wrong .. yet i still get out and do it ...

the rush that comes with the risk is the reason i do it ...

some people get that same rush by just taking a knife to themselves ... even though they try to cover it up with other excuses ... the simple fact is that they are addicted to the feelings and emotions that they have while in the situation.

do i think it is wrong? hell yes. but at the same time, i understand the fundamentals of what they are doing. i do think that it would be better off redirected into something more productive, either on a physical or emotional level though.