[CoolNard]

Not existing doesn't mean you're dead - a whole world of difference, lol, so it makes a lot of sense, don't worry about it. So basically, you just wanted to get away from reality, to take a break from life, to walk the path of barren emptyness so you wouldn't have to suffer any more wrongs and grievances..? Cuz well, if that's what you're saying..., then yes, I've been there.. It's something you don't wanna feel... An emotional feeling which betrays and contradicts itself, a darkness within yourself.. To just want to hide in a desolate nutshell.. Trying to live up to expectations can be tiring... yes, but as long as you keep breathing, you'll be able to pull through everyday.
Suggestion: Try doing something you like to get your mind off negative stuff.. ^_^