Christmas presents.

[noodle]

Originally Posted by Tenchu

Who says I dont. I mean I see beauty most is life and death, time. Xmas is not beauty, that is people seeking a quick hit of joy. Do you think if someone sees beauty in something then that means they have to jump up and down in happiness? <SPEWS>. Let me ask you, what are you going to gain from a life lived in happiness and jolly like in Xmas? You are wasteing your time...

a moment of hapiness makes my life a lot more meaningful than somone that see's hatred in everything.... And i'm guessing for you being not happy doesn't waste your life???

[Tenchu]

Originally Posted by noodle

a moment of hapiness makes my life a lot more meaningful than somone that see's hatred in everything.... And i'm guessing for you being not happy doesn't waste your life???

You have no idea. I dont hate anything, give me one post where I said I do. And just because I am not happy, does it mean I am sad? No.

[noodle]

Originally Posted by Tenchu

Anyway, I hate celebrate, hate laughter. I sit around and pray Demon comes and tears everything up for christmas. UM WANT WAR.........

lol. i see.... so when you said you hate celebrate and hate laughter, you meant you love it?????

[Tenchu]

Originally Posted by noodle

lol. i see.... so when you said you hate celebrate and hate laughter, you meant you love it?????

Well, I guess you have me. I say I hate, but I dont have emotion behind it. That is what I meant. I more so should say I think it is pathetic. Let me ask you, could you sit there and play games and celebrate if there was a child getting raped in the room next to you. You hear the screams of the girl, so you just turn your music up and ignore it. Would you do that? (This is just an example of something else).

[noodle]

Originally Posted by Tenchu

Well, I guess you have me. I say I hate, but I dont have emotion behind it. That is what I meant. I more so should say I think it is pathetic. Let me ask you, could you sit there and play games and celebrate if there was a child getting raped in the room next to you. You hear the screams of the girl, so you just turn your music up and ignore it. Would you do that? (This is just an example of something else).

no of course i wouldn't just sit there and do nothing.... of course you knew i would say that.. so whats the point?

[Tenchu]

Originally Posted by noodle

no of course i wouldn't just sit there and do nothing.... of course you knew i would say that.. so whats the point?

Im see life like there is a Demon stand right behind me, but I turn around, and it disapears. I pray one day I will turn, and I finnally see the Demons face. Even so, until that day comes I am prepare for fight Demon. But now is not a time to be happy, Demon fight many, never loose. I am imortal, but the Demon can not be killed. Life is not know what happen. Prepare for glory, prepare to die. Any day might be my last, or at least I pray each morning that it is...

This is my prayer:

Every morning, when I wake, I rise, and as I rise I pray, and I pray for one thing only; this is my payer; that the Demon is out there. That the Demon is wandering, that the Demon is searching. That the Demon is looking for me, that it wants to find me. And I pray that this day the Demon will find me, that this day the Demon will fight me, and I pray this day the Demon will kill me…

That is a little hard to understand unless I send you the book I wrote. But now is no time to celebrate. You are Muslim, you will not see it in life, but I know what it feels like when your heart finally stops beating. You will feel this too, one day, and you will understand what I mean then,.

[noodle]

yeah you're right, its a little hard to understand... but let me ask you this... i get the impression that you are saying you should not celebrate or be happy until the demon is defeated... but then you say that the demon cannot be defeated and that you hope he finds you and kills you?

from this it means that you will never be happy because you will never kill the deemon as the day he finds you, you wish he kills you and you also know that you cannot defeat it????

So basically, you are doomed to be unhappy (i don't use the word upset because i don't understand what you mean by not being happy) for the rest of your life? You and me obviously are different, but from this, i'd say your life is being wasted rather than mine being wasted!!!

ps... this reply is just from what i've understood from that post, and it may be false what i'm saying as i haven't totally understood your point!

[Katchan6]

sorry if it offends you but i feel sorry for you tenchu

[Tenchu]

Originally Posted by noodle

you should not celebrate or be happy until the demon is defeated...

The Demon can never truly be defeated. The Demon, I am not sure he can find me. All true things are eternal. Life in its true form has never met time. When you truly know what life is, you will realize there is no need to fear death, for you have lived for forever already. This is why the christ god makes no sense to me, why I do not choose religion like yours, if god chooses to throw me to hell, this is a bad thing? I do not understand that, he cannot hurt me, and I can fight him. His hands on my shoulders are real enough, then I will tear them from his body should he threaten me. I dont see that as realistic, I dont see his threats as dangerous. The fight between the heart and the sound of a pendulm swinging is the only battle that holds any reality to me. The Demon claims to hold my heart in his hand with the power to crush it at any moment... Yet he never will because - I am not sure how to finish that sentence...

[Tenchu]

Originally Posted by Katchan6

sorry if it offends you but i feel sorry for you tenchu

Why? I dont really like complimenting myself, but it is probably true. i doubt you have met a stronger willed person than me, ever, he could bear as much torture as me. I am strong, why would you pity that?