well, I think you would be stressed to after gettin two hours of sleep before having to get up really early to wake up three cranky siblings while still have time to get dressed yourself and get on the bus, so you can do your homework then go across campus four times before having cheer practice for two and a half hours learning dances, cheers, stunts, and doing twenty toetouches to top it off.

I write how I feel, I pt on a fake smile at school, write what people tell me two, then sulk in my room with my journal and a pencil.

Not really, if you have enough time for art you have enough time to smile!
Well, anyway; lets leave it at that.

smiling is easy, it's the believing it that's the hard part...

and okies

Believing is easy, just as easy as you like to do art. When you smile, tell yourself you enjoy it, the rest will be done naturally by your body!

it's not always that easy. everyone can fake a smile and make people believe its real...I do it all the time. I dunno...I guess since I've realized I will pretty much be alone the rest of my life, I've forgotten how to believe.

Hmm.

Just do these steps:
1. Stop don't think
2. Do not doubt yourself or say no
3. Trust in yourself
4. Do not say no to yourself.

etc. :O

stop dont think? thats confusing
i cant help but doubt myself...its how i am

You are trying too hard to be negative. You should use that energy to do something positive! =P

im not trying to be negative...i try and be positive but im easily brought down so i dont even try anymore

Okay. Then we'll work together to cheer you up.
;>