[CoolNard]

Teared up a little doing it. Every single detail holds true to this day. For the record, this is my current masterpiece, amateurishly speaking ^^

Eternal Remembrance: Childhood's First Love

In the very first moment I laid eyes on you
My heart found and bloomed into a love so true
How young we were alive with pure innocence
I was hovering between newfound emotions
Your name, your voice, completed with your essence
Why couldn't I speak of your name with perfections?
How was I always so clumsy around your voice?
Yet, during those times I had been, without a pout
Never more happier and proud of my choice
That single glance I knew was born from fate's layout

It wasn't until that day, that I greeted you
The day when Mr. Low sat us together
"Um... Hello..." I said with a shy smile on my hue
Wondering if my hair was of a major jeer
On seeing you ignored me; it seemed like a cue
To hurl everything which I dreamt I could tell
But then you looked at me, for the first time as well
For a while, I was pelted by cupids' arrows
From then our relationship was set on their bows
To explore the verdict of destiny's trial

During weeks on end I was truly overjoyed
Like any student who did great in their exams
... No, This was different, I could never be void
Of claiming my righteous feelings; preventing jams <<(depicting I couldn't move on without her)
Regardless of how long passed or the games I received
Because everyday in class of you I perceived
Every problem assigned to us, we achieved
We were one and the same with each passing time
And still I dared not confess to you on a dime
What method to use - probably sing a rhyme?

Alas regret preceded orchestrating thoughts
This I had never counted on to happen
Naiveness had me down, saying forever nots
Being conned by my heart occured then, at the often
Beginning with a switch in seating arrangement
Mulltiplied when you talked to another guy
Conversing intimately just as you and I
Cowardice overwhelmed my weak jealousy
Even then, my feelings remained unknown to me
As I watched your smiling face vanishing from my life
(^^^ the last two sentences of this stanza symbolizes my hesitation to let her go although she was happy, just incase =D)

Followed by a change from you in next year's classes
I was determined to kick all their asses
Desperate to rejoin you once more hand in hand
Striving toward success was all I had planned
Things like water, food and air were secondary
Couldn't afford to lose a focus or worry
Another try was all I wanted and needed
Just one more attempt I had only required
Lo and behold! My efforts paid off drastically
Seeing you after what felt like a century

I kept waiting for you in class to relight our spark
Enduring pure torture so wrenchingly aching
This tongue of mine was compassing on escaping
When at this point, a friend came sneaking with a bark (tree)
With a message containing something from you to me
Aimed at throwing insulting & hurtful comments
Blinded by rage, I assumed that you had mocked me
So I craved to reciprocate what gave my heart dents
Upon submitting my insensitive reply
That friend laughed and told me he had played my head

I couldn't believe my own words, and before I knew it
Everyone in class was pointing and chuckling
Except you... You just sat there, not responding
While the class bullies displayed my confession
Writing it on the white board amidst confusion
I was held down by the rest of the students
Suddenly, the teacher walked in, her face in anger
She scolded me for not maintaing order
Since I was responsible... I was class monitor
After which she removed my position to restrain

The year ended fast, there was nothing I could do
Situations where I could make amends wouldn't brew
You never looked at me again, only thing I knew
My parents and sibling teased saying "puppy love"
But if I loved you until now, would it still be?
Countless grief-filled nights lacked me of peaceful sleep
Dreams of so near yet so far; reasons I couldn't see
Tears streamed down when I closed my eyes, it wasn't fair...
Even as I'm writing this, I can't help but ponder
If I'll meet you again to utter a sorry

Well, so much for my life story...