My Up`s and Down`s share email
10:31 AM

Well I had to many UPandDOWNs
I did travel much in the past
Try`d to discover the meaning of life.
Had a few scary experiences too,
Had many beautifully... too,
And every time a fall, I did stand up...
No matter how deep the black pit I was trapped,
If you`d ask me.. What would you change???
I would do everything, exactly the same...
And it`s damn true that mos mediocre people are fucked,
But because of they, a few "black sheep`s" stand up.
I`ts only hard to find each other In this fuckedup mass.

Gerland
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oh girl
wait and see
now comes the PAIN

I dont even know to add u as a buddy
i dont have yahoo

2:16am as in now!!!!


Here i am sitting on my bed
Thinking of you
knowing there are no words to be said
here is sit thinking of next Sunday
Will you be thinking of me too
or will you be thinking of only school?

Remember, remember,
That cold night in december.
When the blood poisonous in Your veins
Caused to Me so... so much Pain.
Now that you are forever gone,
I just feel an empty, empty hole...

RIP. My Girl.

Gerland
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Now a hole inside of me,
Is this emptynes thats killing me?,
Selfdestruction came visit me,
To fill that hole inside of me.
Bitter pain and misery,
Finding happyness in slavery,
To fill that hole inside of me,
So many times I try`d to see,
That life could be again,. beautiful for me,
But this hole is still killing me,
Now I`m traped inside of me,
In my fake happyness in misery,
....slavery.

And all this because of you,
I still remember..
RIP. My Girl

Gerland

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Requiem (part 3) The end of my sad trilogy share email
4:55 PM

For three times I've tasted death,
In her eyes. In her breath.
In her hands; what a mess.
she tried to play the devil's chess

In the pit inside of me,
Mr. Self-destructive plays with me.
I've tried to fight. I've tried to play.
but nothing could make the pain go away
the devil still wants to play

I recognized this endless game,
And took a part in the devil's play.
i looked inside of me
and watched that hole that should not be,
That fucking hole that's a part of me.

From chaos emerged a different me.
the one i used to be
smiling, the world in front of me!
I said to the pain, just let me be..

Still the scars of time remain,
I don't think I'm the one to blame,
I'd do everything the same.
Remembering, Remembering that we remain.

The ones who loved.
A different you. A different me.
The ones who where just left to be

I still remember that cold December night.




Gerland

Special THX To Charllote Ellen for editing my work

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This are the poems that i written lately
Sorry about my typing errors
My editor is out of town :)

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I can not help but wonder,
What life should be, I ponder,
In the depths of my unconsciousness,
In the seas of the motionless,
In the spirit of the hopeless.